I learned that you can never forget your past, no matter what you do. But that doesn't mean you live for or by it. You need to move on, and that means not to forget it, but to embrace the undeniable fact that there is no turning back, nor a way for things to go back.
It is normal to feel that way, you got used to a certain life, to certain safety and you want to go back to those moments filled with happiness, and that is completely normal. You feel like that, even though there were bad moments too. Those we always tend to forget. We feel nostalgia of a past with no mistakes, full of joyful moments, and end up missing it even more. It's normal.
But you have to know, there is always a reason to why things went wrong, always a lesson to be learned and always a away to get back those happy moments, although not the same ones, but the taste ends up being always better, because you learned something from the bad tracks in your radio. And heck, life is made of mistakes, it is the necessary truth to evolution!
Don't expect to wake up one day and the pain just simply disappeared! This is impossible, but I can promise it will fade, although slowly, and eventually be so small it remains as a lesson learned and just another story in your life to keep you from the same bad mistakes.
You will get better and you will get stronger, trust me. Trust yourself. Believe that it wasn't meant to be because there is something a lot better just around the corner for you. Because you deserve better! And this means you have to take a step forward so you can be able to see it. To see the bright happiness that lies ahead. And don't rush, all comes in good time, it is the law of the universe.
Good luck, be strong and believe in yourself! <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xn676-fLq7I&ob=av2e - this track has an essence of what I say here.
